Oh, Military Wives..

Prepare to get PISSED!

I had to do it, y'all. And here I go!..

What the hell did you ladies do BEFORE you married "The Hubby"?? Because some of you all obviously act as if your lives were conceived as soon as you married this man. Never in my life have I ever seen such co-dependent bitchin' and moanin' over another human being. Like seriously? Children are more independent compared to some of you wives. And your husbands better be God because you act like their shit is golden.

Oh, and what is all this self-righteous, self-pity SHIT you parade around with? Honey, you chose to marry a man that will be gone at least half of the time you are with him, if not ALL of the time. I'm so tired of these military wives acting as if they had no choice in the matter of marrying a man who isn't there. I get it. They run the house while he is away. They're "independent," but not really. Because a good ass number of these women don't even work! They stay home and pop out babies and complain some more.. Well guess what? Who the HELL told you to have all those damn kids all by your lonesome?? NO ONE. Stop poppin' out kids, damnit! You are not a Pez dispenser!

Oh, and uh, I know about how some of these "faithful" military wives turn to other women and hit up Craigslist when their man ain home. That's not cool. So.. YOU can have a side piece of the same sex and "it doesn't count," but don't he DARE do that, right? No, ma'am. I'm all for equality and that is a damned double standard! He has to keep it in his pants and therefore so do you! That is CHEATING and it objectifies women. So, you can get your jollies from a woman and it's not cheating? But, if it's not cheating, why won't you tell your husband? Why you gotta hide it?? Ugh! You disgust me!

But anyway, tangent aside, I ran by one military wife's blog who acted as if they were in some damn secret society about who could bitch the loudest. It was sickening. They were like wives of rich CEOs and basketball players who have nothing better to do but sit around and brag about their Men. They were like Kept Women living vicariously through their husbands. I even read where this woman bitched about other military wives calling out their husbands' rank. It was like a damn rank war: whose husband out-ranked the others, whose husband had the most pay, responsibility and respect.

And that shit made me sick to my stomach. My inner, rowdy feminist could not have been more upset and displeased. What IS this SHIT? What did these military wives do before they got married? Because they act completely hopeless..
Oh. That's right. I know what they did before they got married: They were still living at home with momma and daddy.

That's another thing. These damn wives are 18, 19, 20 years of age. They're young as shit! Who the HELL falls in love and gets married at 18?? Bad choice, my friend. Baaaaad choice.
But I get it. The separation makes young couples feel as though they are being torn apart and everything all the more dire. They run with the idea of "absence makes the heart grow fonder" and feel the need to get married RIGHT NOW! After all, they're "in love," right? Yeah, right.

But here's the deal. Military wives are not special. I feel as though they want to be and want to be pitied. But you know what? They should have joined the military themselves if they wanted that shit. It is far more noble and respectable. And you know what? They're actually doing something worthwhile and meaningful.. Or hell, they're doing something PERIOD. Haha. I know. I'm a mess..

Oh, and I was on Yahoo Answers one time researching the military and I happened to run across one lil momma talking about "there should be a code of conduct for military wives." Bitch, please! You are married to someone in the military, not actually IN it. You don't need this "code" you so desperately want. You need a life. The government will not issue your lil fast ass a uniform or a damn badge that says "Military Wifey." Um, I CAN give you a cookie, if you want one, though lol.
But I had to give it to one of the other wives who replied to her; she laid into her. She basically told this lil heffa to get a life because she was feeling herself and her husband a little too much. She was the epitome of living through her husband..

Oh, and of all the military wives I've seen, they seem to be ridiculously in love with their husbands. Like, dangerously in love. Like "this-is-my-whole-life-if-he-ever-leaves-me-or-gets-killed-in-combat-I-will-literally-die" type of love.
Daaaaaaamn, bitch! I don't see other married couples like that! How friggin' weird, man. Friggin' weird.
But will that "love" still be present and strong when he comes home for good? Or will all the thrill, excitement, "money" (cause y'all don't get that damn much money!), and danger be gone and the marriage goes the way of half of all marriages in America: Divorce?? Hmmm.. Something to think about, y'all..

And, in closing (very research paper of me, I know lol), shout outs to Trey Songz for his new video "Yo Side of the Bed" which depicts a military HUSBAND who stays home and cares for house, home, and child while the woman, a soldier, goes off to war. It's an awesome role reversal. It's still a slick pity party with the idea of deployment and all (you knew what you were getting into beforehand!), but it is a nice to see a different story concerning military marriage.. Even if they were an Army marriage and not Navy lol. My humanitarian feminist alter ego was very pleased indeed.

Aight, y'all! I'm done. Need a tissue?? Lol.



~Sailor Taylor

This Mo-Fo Cheated!

So, VERY long story short that I do not feel like getting into because I am lazy, Alec's bitch ass cheated on me! Sure, I was cheating all along (teehee), but it's a damn double standard! I do what I want, but don't you dare do what you want, Alec! Fuck no. Lol.

So, basically, I got a message on MySpace (yes, I still have a MySpace. It's about to get deleted after THIS shit) from some random white bitch in GEORGIA talking about Alec is her boyfriend and that she found me on his page and she wants to know who I am. Random snoopin' bitch. All up on my page!

But WHAT, WHAT, WHAT?!

Of course he denied me to her and denied her to me. But I could tell he really wanted that fat, gullible white heffa after how bad he treated me when me and her got into it. He was obviously on her side because she was stupid enough to take him back. I mean damn. How stupid and weak do you have to be?
He'd been sending the broke bitch money and everything. I'm just mad I didn't get some of that lil E-4 money too! LMAO! So all of us had words and I left him and her alone once I got tired of them entertaining me with their petty shit.

The NERVE of some people! So apparently he had been with this white skank for over a year. So he came into our relationship cheating but wanting me to be faithful. BISH, PLEASE! I postponed going to boot camp for him! I could have been there now! But nooooo. My crazy ass wanted to "wait" on him so I could actually meet him..

Oh, get this. That white hoe had NEVER MET Alec's bitch ass. Neither have I! He was in NY, I'm in TN, and she is in Georgia. This bish is myspace goonin' me from GEORGIA! And then she has a lil bastard baby (yes, bitch got a baby. Of course!) and her lil "myspace friends" sending me hateful messages. LOL! She called herself dumping him but got right back with him the next day. Girl, you stupid! Ain no way in hell I'm keeping Miss Kitty on lock for an entire year for some nigga I have never met! Are you for real?!

See, I told yall Alec wanted some damn damsel in distress and that I wasn't it! Little Miss White Trash actually needs him. She is younger than Alec and I, has a baby, no college degree, and apparently needs his money. I don't need his shit, I am a college graduate (bachelors, baby!), I don't have any children, and everything I have I literally bought myself. Mommma didn't get this for me!

Men who want to run game need a silly hoe who has never had anything because a smart, independent woman just won't do. And, Baby, you betta believe my ass is SHARP and SOLO. You ain' gettin' shit past me. Wish you would! HA!

But I will admit that at first I was upset because my ego was hurt. I mean look at me! Who would pass ME up for some fugly pink meat? But, like I said, an unattractive silly chick will only do for Alec and his shenanigans. I'm too woman for him. He had to downgrade:)

And just think. I bet Alec's fat ass has women all over the South claiming that he loooves them. Bless their poor ignorant souls. I asked why he did it and he said "I don't know. Guess I'm a predator and I prey on the weak." Baby, you MUST mean that white heffa because I AM NOT THE ONE.

So now I am sangle and manglin:) I feel no guilt and these last 3 months that I am home are for fun and games. I will not be held down and I have someone(or shall I say someones? teehee) in my sights already...

"Can't no body hold me down, can't no body hold me down! Oh no! I gotta keep on movin'!"

I am happy yet again:)

~Sailor Taylor

I Cheated

Yep, I did it. I cheated. Several times. It was premeditated too. And Alec knows..

I knew that as soon as I open my mouth and start bragging about how much I love Alec and how wonderful he is, the proverbial shit would hit the fan. And boy did it. And guess whose fault it is? Mine, ladies and gentlemen, the fault is all mine..

Due to my past fucked up military relationships, I was certain Alec was screwing around on me. It only made sense to me. I mean, that's what military personnel do, right? They get involved way too soon and then they cheat. It's like a clockwork orange, it is. But I could find no dirt on Alec. None. And here at home I was getting lonely. Lonely and horny... I love sex. It can't be helped. And I half way didn't even believe Alec was telling the truth about how he felt about me anyway. And I felt that he just wanted some lil damsel in distress for him to "save", but I need no saving. I AM my own woman..

Everything happens for a reason. But I have no idea what my reason for Alec is. Why did I meet him? Why did we have to fall for each other like we did? Either way, it happened and I figured and rationalized that I had to give him, and "us" a go... Knowing damn well that I love my freedom. I love to go out and somewhat run the streets and flirt and see what is out there and have SEX. And when I am in a long distance relationship I cannot do any of that. I can only sit at home and bitch and moan about how shitty the military is and how I miss my man... Basically, I would be a co-dependent military housewife and that is NOT me. Hell no; never will be.

It was eating me up inside and I had to tell Alec.
He got angry. He cried(that's what he told me!). He got pissed. He took his anger out on me by treating me horribly. I don't blame him, but I wouldn't stand by and take that so we broke up..for about all of 2 days. It was so different having him around but not like how I was used to. It hurt. So we got back together..

But the sad thing is that Alec tried to tell me that the streets had nothing to offer me and that I should come on back home to him. That is was either him or the streets.. So I chose him.. Kinda.. Just don't ask;(

But I realized what the difference between Alec and I is. He is so traditional Southern and acts so old. I am young, vibrant, and full of life. He's ready to settle down and start a family. I'm not. I don't even want kids. I don't even like them. But in all honesty Alec has lived life and seen the world. I haven't. The only world I have seen is on a Girl Scouts trip and when I went to go visit my ex in the Navy. My life has yet to be lived.. I'm sorry. Why did this have to happen? I told him we were opposites. I tried to be coy because really I didn't have the heart to do so. I want to have ALL my cake and eat it too!..But don't he dare do that.. It's a double standard, I know..
But Alec just told me that opposites attract.. Little did he know what he was getting into..

I feel like such a man. Or a boy, rather. I don't even feel like I am at my prime yet. I feel all this energy collecting up in me, waiting to explode from me at a later date.. Like after boot camp is over;) I have never wilded out and my time is now and it's coming up.. But I know Alec won't be there for all that. But maybe Alec isn't the one? Maybe he's just a starter to show me what I need to have in my life once I am ready to slow it down.. Hm, only God knows.
But I know this behavior is not a product of my exes doing me wrong like Alec thinks. This is all me. I'm not a dog; I am an Aquarius. And we will see how this all pans out..

~*Sailor Taylor*

Musings on Marriage

If I am SuperGirl, well on my way to becoming SuperWoman, then marriage and children are surely my Kryptonite.

Some women only want to fall in love, marry, have children and live happily ever after. And then there are some who are more career-minded, but somehow still want what their feminine, maternal instincts beckon.

I want none of that. My flesh crawls and curtles at the very notion of anything that is traditionally dictated by my gender. I simply want to be a successful Sailor. And, with God's Blessing upon my life, I have sowed the first seeds for that to occur. And that is what I wake up to every morning and cuddle with every night.

The notion that I could fall in love, get married, lose my ambitions and become a lowly wife, submitting to a man, "the man of the house", scares the living shit out of me. I don't want that! Not now. Not for another 8 years or so.

I think it is perfectly fine to not have a "family" until I am in my 30s. I just don't like the on going trend of getting married and poppin' out kids by the age of 21. Who does that anyway??

Wait, you know who does that? Military couples. And that has got to be the most unwise thing I have ever witnessed. Yes, I know service people get lonely and want someone to come back home to. That is all fine, dandy and human. But to actually go out and marry someone you barely know?? Or, hell, know very well! Absence does make the heart grow fonder, but it also makes you want to fuck. Plain and simple. The divorce rate is, what, 50%?? And people want to add to that, ignorantly thinking "oh, we'll be different!" God, bless your poor souls. I thought the same way once.

And then, as I was browsing blogs, I found one from a young military wife that stated "they say this is, after all, the hardest job to have." The "hardest job" being that of a civilian who is married to a military service person, or a military wife, plain and fuckin simple.

But I mean really? REALLY?? Really now? You have it so damn hard because you CHOSE to marry someone who will not be there over half of the time? All you do is sit there and be lonely and bitch and moan and then hit up Craigslist for someone to "hold you over" while your spouse, the one with the REAL hard job, goes out there and risks it all. All YOU did was fall in love and wait, not fight for this country.

Okay, sorry to ramble like that. Whew! Lol. But my point is that marriage, children, family, all of that, is just not appealing to me. Not in the least bit. Not at all. I run from it like vampires run from the sun. Just no. Hell no. I don't know what causes me to have such an irrational, unbridled hatred for such an institution as marriage, but that is how I feel. Maybe it's the fact I know what my expected "role" will be as a woman. Maybe it's because I don't want to settle and be chained down. And maybe it's because I am mature enough to know I don't want to be a wife and would therefore make a horrible mother and spouse.

But I see how people's lives have been drastically altered because they "fell in love." And if love does that, then I don't want it. And as of now, God has not presented me with love outside of Ladarrius, which was a necessary evil to get my life in the Navy direction. God knows that love would distract me and take me off my path. I'm meant for Greatness. And what would the point of meeting "The One" right now if I am not ready, anyway? I would fuck up a good thing.

So, no I don't want any of that. And I don't want my spouse to cheat on me while I'm away, which happens PLENTY of times with military couples. Nothing about marriage is attractive to me. It's almost hard to articulate how I feel but I guess I have done a good enough job for now:) Hopefully yall get my meaning??

~*Pie*